wimps.

we're all wimps. even me, even you. and im such a wimp i dont have half the courage to tell anyone this to their face. 

we all like the easy way out of everything. i refer this particular posts to monash students, perhaps only to Arts students. i have found myself and a significant number of other people more tolerant towards 'bad' teachers, teachers who we dont believe are educators qualified enough to teach us, primarily because their methods arent holistic and dont encourage us to learn. and why are we tolerant? 'because at least he/she doesnt mark us tough'. i think that that just about does it. i know, that in my time too, i withstood making complaints and official remarks about lecturers primarily because at least they were grading me fine. 

but whenever the grades werent right, for me and others, there'd be uproar. why? because we'd think this person didnt judge our subjective essay well enough, because obviously, having put in the amount of effort that we did, we dont think it fair that it be graded a heartless, cold C.

of course, to give ourselves credit, when we have found good educators, people who really want you to grasp the concept of something and have worked towards that, but give us poor grades, we dont say anything. because given their reasoning and what they have to say for our grades, we understand. maybe we dont. but when we see that most people probably grasped the objective of the assignment and we didnt, that perhaps we're in the red for a valid reason.

i can tell you from my personal experience. i had a lecturer who refused to tell us our periodicial assignment grades, stating that if he released them, and say by the end of the semester, we were cruising between a 69 and a 7o, he wouldnt be able to help us get the extra numeral. and we were all okay with it. i was okay with it. in the belief that when D-Day came, he'd help me get the HD in place for the D. it never occurred to me that i might end up with a 62, a C. what also happened was that we were never allowed to view our assignments. which basically meant we didnt know our progress throughout the semester. it was something that we did in understanding that once we saw our work and whatnot, we wouldnt be able to make changes. and forgive me if this sounds gripe-ly of me, but i let it happen in the wide-eyed belief that all would be well. and perhaps its a testament to my wimpiness that i am now writing a blog post about this. this probably wouldnt even have occurred to me if i'd gotten the D or the HD i was ever so confident of.

dont hate me, im just putting this out there.